some some some i murder... some some i let go

to whatever idiotic wastes of space that think they know me and have the right to judge me, you can get fucked. you have no idea what a waste the last few years of my life have been and the lies i've had to just let go because nothing will ever be resolved or accounted for because the person involved is too self-centered and immature. but i accepted that a while ago and could really give a shit.

with every fiber of my being i wish none of this had ever happened, and hadn't even met anyone involved. but i know that's a joke so i'm just taking the life experience from it. no one is perfect. no matter how much you love someone, it can end up being a big fucking joke and there's nothing you can do about it. i didn't believe it when i read it in a book, but it can be true that the one you love and the one who loves you are never ever the same person.

i'm just glad i got the hell out of that while i could and haven't looked back. i miss nothing from before. i feel like an idiot for wasting my life but i've learned a lot and won't ever make the same mistakes again. my trust is shot and it's for the best. no one deserves something that they've never earned.

so when you call me a slut, or a liar.. or whatever the hell you wastes of space are saying now.. know that i really don't give a shit. for one, look at yourself. it's really laughable considering some of the people who are saying these things. most of you talking shit are the ones whoring around and being more immature than the 19 year old over here.. so kudos on that one, lovelies.

secondly, you're buying into the same bullshit lies that i was fed for well over a year.. good one. while it'll be hilarious when you finally catch on {that is, if you ever do.. i do doubt that some of you possess the mental capacity} i don't feel bad for anyone else who gets hurt. if i had to learn the hard way, so should everyone else.

and finally.. if you have something to say you can own up and say it to my fucking face like a big boy/girl. don't text my phone like a punk bitch, don't put something clever on facebook like a witless douche. act your fucking age and say it to my face. you moronic cowards make me sick.

and as for the only person really involved in all of this.. while i never use the word hate, if i knew the emotion it'd be reserved for you. you wasted my time, my life, my emotions and so much more. i don't think you ever spoke a word of truth the entire time i knew you. all you are is a carbon copy of the people around you. while you lack the self confidence to be your own person, you try to become the people around you.

it's almost sad, but more pathetic. you are one of the most unattractive people to me now, both inside and out. and despite the fact that you think you're so big and and bad.. even intellectual.. you don't even have the balls to own up to anything. not a damn thing. well you know the truth. and i know the truth. i also know that karma's a bitch, and in the end you'll get yours.

while i can't in all good conscience wish it upon anyone, if i woke up tomorrow and heard the news that you were gone, really literally gone.. wiped out.. deceased.. no more.. all i think i could do is smile. no tears, no remorse, no silent prayers.

burn, baby, burn.